So I was surfing through the breastfeeding and found a cookie recipe to help increase milk supply. I was telling Jeff about it and he was like a cookie will help you lactate?? Yes a cookie recipe. That means haaaannnndddsss off, which will kill him he loves when my cooking and when I make home made cookies. So haha these are for me and your son not for youuu! :3

I've been freezing my milk and I didn't really want to break into it, but I did this after noon I found one that only had 4 OZ in it that way I could thaw it out, and give it to GM when he wakes up. Since I have about 12 bags (now 11) frozen I'm going to stop freezing for now until my milk supply goes back up, and just start storing milk in the fridge. The last few days I haven't been giving him breast milk, I've been giving him formula which is bad because he is getting constipated and he has only pooped twice one last night and one this morning. When usually he goes through the diapers. I've been giving him formula on trips and at bed time because it keeps him full longer. I'm sure the breast feeding mommies think 'i'm being selfish' and not giving my son his breast milk. But I don't want to pull out my breast in public, and I would rather him be full at night then him crying his head off because he is so hungry (and I'm not making enough milk right now).

I also need to eat more, but right now we are low on health snacks. With Jeff working day and night, and me with the baby it's hard for me to find time to cook myself food let alone take a shower. I'm lucky to get online and make journal entries. But he's sitting right next to me, and I can put the laptop down at anytime and tend to his needs.
 

Graham Mikyah Webber was born September 1, 2009 at 2:15 pm. I was in labor for three days! My contractions started at 4 o'clock Sunday after noon and they didn't let up, but they were never really intense. But they were about four minutes apart, so I went to bed, got up in the morning and they were still going, along with other not so nice stuff that goes along with labor. So I called my doctor and she said to come in. It took forever to get to the hospital, Jeff was at school in Oak Ridge so him taking me was out of the question. I called my cousin Aaren and she came and got me, mean while my contractions started to get stronger and more on top of each other. She had to make a quick stop at the gas station, well her car breaks down! So we were freaking out trying to call everyone and finally Aaren's mom  came and got me and took me on. It was a rough ride to my doctor. I was in tears my contractions never let up it was one right after the other, and they were on top of each other too! As soon as one started the next one built on top of that and I had back labor, which is the worst labor you could ever have (as people have told me). Anyway got to my doctors office and she checked me out and admitted me into the hospital, she said if nothing happens tonight then she will break my water in the morning and we'll have a baby. I got into my room at 4, I sat there for two hours with back labor and I had enough of it, I asked for the epidural. It was not as bad as I thought it would be, he did hit a nerve because I have scoliosis, and I lost complete feeling and control over my entire left leg. Which sucked a lot I could hardly move and the nurses kept trying to roll me onto my sides to help Graham descend more into my pelvis. As soon has Jeff walked into the room and sat down my water broke at 8:30 pm. The only down side to this was my contractions never thinned out my cervix at all. So Tuesday morning at 7:30 am they started me on pitocin (which is to help move a long labor). And that did the trick at 2:00 I started to feel a lot of pressure, but did not think much of it and I fell asleep, and then my doctor came in checked me and he was crowning. So they got me ready and set up everything. It was so funny Jeff was on my left side holding my leg (and having difficulty with it I had no feeling or control over it at all) and when everything got started he got a little woozy and had my cousin hold my leg for me. He sat on the couch in the room but still watched his son be born and he cut the cord. It took four pushes and Graham was out, I was surprised the third push the nurses were making cracks about how modest I was and it made me laugh so in the middle of my third push I was trying not to laugh. So I'm snickering and trying to push at the same time. So at 2:15 Graham made his way into the world perfect, beautiful, and healthy.

Meeting him for the first time I was in awe, being a mom has been the BEST thing has that ever happened to me this year. It's still unbelievable that I created this little human, I took care of him nurtured him for nine months inside my womb and he was finally out in the world. He is so beautiful and so calm and just so amazing. Every little cry, or little whimper I'm there  in a heart beat. Jeff says I need to calm down that I hover too much and that he's okay. I often do this even when Jeff is holding him. I can't stand to be too far from him. It's my motherly instincts kicking in. Jeff has really stepped up he is really loving something I didn't expect at all. I guess Graham was something that he really needed after all. Sometimes I still can't believe how this little person was inside of me for so long. I know for a fact my mom would be so proud of me and Graham. I can faintly hear her voice in the back of my head of how she would respond to him. I'm excited and nervous but in a good way. I can't wait to see what kind of personality he will have and who he will look like more as he gets older. He's a good mixture of Jeff and I both. He has really dark blue eyes, they will probably change when he gets a little bit older. Jeff has brownish green eyes. But who knows he may just stay with these odd colored blue eyes. Really they are an odd color, they are different shades of dark blue and you can see all the different shades.